My door is open if you forget about the lock.I am not late if you ignore the clock.My world is light if you forget about the weight.My life is happy if you ignore the hate. I’m driving fast if you forget about the slow.I’m climbing high if you ignore the low.It’s not drowning if you…

Blindsided with the punch of a hundred fond memoriestransformed by toxicity to torture and terrors.Tears cascading down my red raw cheeksshowing me exactly how much I’ve become weak. The conversations I’m having belong in a far away placethe thoughts in my mind put me in a very dark state.My enemy I cannot hold, I cannot…

Was I ever a whole person?Just one complete versionof what a human should be?Have I ever been a whole me? I leaned on my parents until last yearand my friends helped me through plenty of tears.I’ve always had loving partners with whomtogether we battled every doom. I have brothers and sisters and cousins and kidsbut…

A tornado of thoughts decimate my calmlike a plague of locusts creating indiscriminate harm.There’s no solid ground, there’s no place to rest.I cannot describe the terror of this brutal test. Of my resilience and might, of my mental strengthto get through each day, to hurdle over every fence.I could collapse in a heap and plenty…

I cannot sleep for the wounds are too deep.The metaphorical bleeding from my heart, so weak.It’s been ripped and torn and now it’s time to mourn.I’m changed forever now I’ve been attacked by thorns. You know this isn’t right, this is purely spite.Now it’s round my neck it’s a chain so tight.I hope you know…

There’s a virus in here which spreads like a madnessof uncontrollable voyeuristic joy at other peoples’ sadness.You can see in their eyes a furnace-like fire.I suppose it makes them feel better about their desire. It seems to me that their underdeveloped brainsgenuinely rejoice in other human’s pains.The fervour by which they devour the newsfurther perverts…

Why did I not swim across a lock?Or climb a mountain and sing from the top? Why did I not sit in the front rowof a laugh-ut-loud comedy show? Why did not try eating blue cheese?Or go kite surfing on a strong coastal breeze? Why did I not cycle up a big hill?Or do a…

My mind has been thrown aroundlike a small fishing boatbeing ravaged by a winter storm. And, like many small vessels,I was not built for this.I am in the wrong place. The gales of fear and the waves of terrorsneaked up on meand caught me off guard. My forecast was for a sunny day.How wrong was…

What is this feeling that’s destroying my me?The grinding that’s eating away constantly?The bones of my soul consumed by a gnawinglike a parasitic being, my happiness collapsing. The catastrophic effect of a catalogue of effortsripping me apart like a circus of terrors.It’s now out of control and my strength is in bitswhen emotions cross the…

The Big Man stands at my open cell door“Whit de ye wAnt?” he demands with a roar.I ask for something I know I’m allowed“No ye cannae” he growls with a voice, way too loud. Mr Prison Officer, please tell me why you’re like this.Why do you provoke? Why abuse us?You must realise that what you’re…